CYANOSIS.

i'm good at wasting my time.
also, i'm lonely. extremely lonely. also, our main teacher this semester is ridiculously strict + the biggest sexist i have ever met.
but i'm doing okay? kindof. i like trains, yamanote line, especially. and those giant pedestrian crossings. among other things.
friday night, i went with kristoffer to ni-chome, which was interesting. there was a tanabata tree in one of the clubs so i wrote 生きられるように ("i want to be able to live") on a tanzaku (though in retrospect, i'm pretty sure i forgot to write the き. (alcohol makes you do crazy things. right.)), which seemed like the right wish to make. no more failing-at-life! it hasn't come true yet, but. still.

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umm okay.
let's try this livejournal thing again.

since my last post (which was longer ago than i thought o_o), i have:
had the worst new years eve of my life + rediscovered the beauty of libraries ♥ + become way too absorbed in hana yori dango. (what is it with me & cheesy j-dramas? hm.)
annnnd i think that's it. friends&acquaintances are moving away from this city at a horrifying rate. as of right now, i have about two left, though luckily they're my two closest ones.

i'll be leaving soon too. i think. kristoffer (aka spook for you denkipoppers) & i paid for our tickets today: tokyo, march25. though we're still not sure whether everything will work out with the school or not, agh. no, not stressed at all! x_x
HOWEVER
i'm 97% sure it will.
in which case i'll be leaving in like, a month. to tokyo, for one whole year; WHY YES that's pretty wtf. i know i want to go, but i'm not sure why i want to go. japan isn't this Big Shiny Dream of mine anymore, like when i was 17 (even though that's not that long ago ^^;).
but, it still feels nice: challenging myself, having some change of scenery. seeing pla! &mucc! & some others, i guess. learning the language better. i like languages (in a very nerdy way, haha), i like japanese. and i like big cities. i'll be fine, hopefully.

let's just hope i'll be able to go~ x_x if the school decides now that something's wrong with our papers, i think i'm going to cry.

i) virtual jellyfish aquarium.
so weird. but, love (**;

ii) life is exhausting.
iii) murakami is a genius. (kafka on the shore ♥)
iv) my brother bought a wii yesterday (queueing outside the store from like 1am on the release day; totally hxc ^^;) & zelda twilight princess is such a pretty game omg.

snow falls horizontally outside my window right now :O

@_o; yeah, wtf.

rain has stopped. film festival starts tomorrow. uni still scary (though slightly less so, now).

yes

friday night will equal videodisco. ahhaha. WHAT.

i) up until august 31, weather was still all summerysunnyDEATH but since september 1st, it's been raining every day except one. omfgyesautumn. finally ;_;

ii) tagged by _tokage_ quite some time ago. the seven-songs-you-love-right-now-thinger;

heidi. - kaihou
my bloody valentine - only shallow
my bloody valentine - when you sleep
lin clover - wheel
lin clover - mizu no biidama
the blue hearts - linda linda
tokyo jihen - superstar

iii) tagged by _tokage_ just today!,

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i made a shuuji icon. wtf julia, you're too into this. "this", of course, being nobuta wo produce. which is very: a) visually stunning (as in, colours&sceneries; not KAME&YAMAPI ZZOMG KAWAII, though that's kind of true as well. I SAID IT. WHAT ._.), b) quirky&weird in a very good way. even dreamlike, sometimes & c) way too touching wtf. love.

also; the existence of heidi. makes me veryvery happy. because they're practically kalimero, & they'll probably hopefully still be active by the time i come to japan OMGYES
yes.

meeting hanna tomorrow! or rather, today! meaning i should sleep!
probably.
hello, new livejournal.

hello~